if i had not known you, i would not have found you

if i had not known you, i would not have found you
hidden like a diamond among the grains of sand hidden like a gold coin in a copper coin world
hidden like a single star in a moonless sky.
you've always been there


in my lonely thoughts
in my faceless dreams
in my yearning soul.
i searched for you from the beginning
and did not know I was looking
and did not see the truth before me
and did not understand what i would find.
i almost lost you before i found you
in the coma of a soma sleep
in the fog of a loritab dream
in the stupor of a benzedrine haze.

Still, I found you, maybe too late
the only diamond in the sand

the only gold in all the copper
the only star in my sky.